Michelle Clearly remembers over a decade ago being in a deep state of despair, a mum of two young girls, and failing miserably to make ends meet, avoiding the letterbox for fear of bills and hiding from the Sherriff. I was extremely unwell, in and out of the hospital so much they called me a frequent flyer (funny, not funny). I was begging and pleading for help internally whilst trying to keep the face on in for the ‘friends’ and thinking … life shouldn’t be this hard! But for me, it was!
.. and it got worse, the house had to be sold. I fell to my knees distraught beyond words as the sold sticker was slapped on the for-sale board by the new owners. My beautiful eldest daughter put her hand on my shoulder and said ‘we’ll be alright mum, we’ve still got each other. I cried even harder, as I felt her love but I did not share her optimism.
The kids came out of private and into public school, crushing many of my dreams for them and myself, gut-wrenching guilt and shame are all I remember of those times.
All the successes I had achieved in my past prior to becoming a wife and mother I had lost touch with, completely forgotten. My confidence was shot from decades of being shut down and gaslighted! It’s fair to say that I hated myself and I had no idea who that person was looking back at me in the mirror, I couldn’t even look myself in the eye. I was a walking time bomb, numb and going through the motions with a broken heart from life.
Having to leave a trolly
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3 Central Ave, Boronia VIC 3135, Australia Boronia, Australia